This summer will definitely be an important summer, for sure. I know things are difficult right now since all what has gone. People leaving your life because of the mistakes you have made, but I am more than ever focused on helping you out in anyway I can. It isn’t right everyone is leaving you, just because of a mistake. As they considered them as your friends they should stick around and help you out when it comes to these hard of times. I’m quite disappointed in all of them. There is obviously a difference between them and me. I, don’t walk away from people when they screw up. I want to help them in anyway I can. Correct them in their wrongness so that they may learn from it and avoid from happening again. Obviously, you all are not like that. This summer is huge because if I cannot hold up my side of the bargain, then you will be sent away, and I can assure you both of us don’t want that. I made a promise to the judge that I will be staying aside you and help you in anyway I can. It’s a big summer for sure, but ufortunately, this summer is all we have for making progress. I better pull something out of my butt huge this time in order to keep this promise to you, the judge, and your family if we don’t want to see you away.
I am not regretting my decision making on the group. Me and Jordan BOTH agreed in this decision. We’ve been pretty lenient on all the members, but something had to be done. We gave the option to people who have lost any feeling, passion, etc. to walk away. That was actually Jordan’s idea, I liked it and felt like it was a good choice. He and I both have been frustrated with the Inconsistency in the group. Meaning, not paying attention, not showing up to meetings, not turning in stuff that we have hammed down about for quite sometime. They knew what they were getting into when they agreed to join. Dedication, reponsilbity, etc. Unfortunately, I didn’t want to have to do this, but it needs to shown we are frustrated with the members, and this is serious business. I expected the ones who walked away to away. I expected their reactions, responses, to be that way. So none of it was a surprise to me. It’s what I expected and I was prepared to handle them individually. I am grateful for their time and effort into the group. The ones who did walk away were the ones we were frustrated with, so that says something as well. By reading all of their responses, I just knew it be that way. I’m expecting one of them to be in an uproar about it, but not say anything. Oh well. We move on and continue to look forward in the future with our new structured plans, thanks to Jordan and I. More organized, devotions, prayer before and after meetings and events. Communication, note taking etc. Whle I’m away, I expect Jordan to do a great job until I am back to bounce in July. I anted to tell them what Sean told me. Draw up a meeting and let everyone know in advanced and whoever shows up, that is our team. Whoever didn’t, pull them aside and say we’ve let the, know in advances and you were a no show. Whether it be, family, work, school related, then you’re excused. Other than that, sorry. Oh well, we are very pleased with them all for the time and effort they put in.
Jordan was the best choice to be the leader while I’m away for GWGL for a good month cause of health reason. We’re both on the exact same page with stuff, and he is the best option for these adjustments, changes to be made for the group. I know he’ll do good. Hoping the messages will be clear once we send out what we’re going to be sending out in the next couple of days
After such a long 24 hours, Marcel went missing. Searched for him until 5 in the morning. Sure, half of it was his mistake, the other half wasn’t. But people, the ones who are suppose to be his real friends, are abandoning him after this? He messed up once, and now they want nothing to do with him. That just makes me sick. Ticks the hell out of me that he messes up just a little bit just once, and now they want to drop all communication with him because of this. They said I wasted my time looking for him all night. No, it wasn’t a waste. He’s my friend and I’d search for him again. That goes for any of my other friends. It just ticks me off show up people are like this. As soon as someone screws up, they just decide to pull this off. Drop off communications with that person. He doesn’t deserve that. What kind of people are we if we did that all the time when some one screws up? Believe it or not, we need each other more than what people realize.
It’s a good thing I have a friend like James to tell me there are people on his fourth hour class that STILL talk about me. And after I sent messages saying I’ve let go of ,y anger towards them and apologizing. I did that because God was telling me. Now I get to,d this, and it’s like ‘alright cool’. Whatever. I did my part. I’m just done. And to think I was thinking on going back. Pathetic
